Well, there are some who love to experience life, and then there are those that love to EXPERIENCE LIFE! I guess we all just take life in in our own way. Gatlin just happens to take it in a little more messily (is that a word) than others. But boy is this kid loved!!!! He loves making us laugh. My favorite.... every morning right after he wakes up he comes and finds me and wants me to hold him as he wakes up!!!!
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Hey mom, well...…. I think the idea that we are going from 3 to 4 kids in a few months is starting to sink in a little more. Took awhile huh?
I am sooooo stoked and so dang excited for a new little baby in our home! I just visited a friend last night that just had her baby earlier this week...… I got to just snuggle and stare at that little one. It feels so close to heaven when you hold a baby. The perfect little fingers and toes.... aaaahhhh. Just can't wait. Of course there are a few fears..... BIRTH, first off. Secondly, I had a day today all to myself. That hasn't happened in forever. Gatlin does have preschool 3 days a week until noon but it's usually just enough time to drop off, exercise, go shower and get ready, clean a little and then it's time to pick him up already. Well today after preschool, Gatlin went to a little friend's house from church...… until 3:30 when we picked up the older kids. I had basically a whole day to do what I wanted. Work if I wanted..... took a 20 minute power nap (cause why not????) The day was all mine. And it felt nice. eeeekkkkkkk! After I picked up the kids from school and we were huddled around the table eating our after school snack, Gatlin hollering to wipe his little bum in the bathroom, I realized we are starting all back over. For a moment I thought of all the things I am losing..... time for myself, freedom (lol), a cleaner home, afternoon naps, my body (I mean, can you say breastfeeding????). Anyway, the list goes on and you get the gist. The one word that keeps coming to mind is SACRIFICE. I'm already feeling a sneak peek of that as I've been pregnant. My toes have slowly disappeared as the stretch marks have darkened. My body is no longer my body alone. We've felt it as we've needed to readjust our budget to sacrifice things now for doctor appointments, baby stuff, etc. The sacrifice felt big and heavy for a short time as I sat at the table with the kids and then I realized...… I want to have a baby more than I want a perfect body. I want a baby more than the ability to afford all the newest iphones and gidgets and gadgets. I want so much to love and mother another little soul.... to shape them, to teach them, to give them my whole heart. Perhaps the ironic thing about it all is that I need this little one more than he needs even me! I want to be a Christlike person, I want to serve others with my whole heart, I want to be selfless and more kind. There is nothing that has brought those things out of me more than having a baby. (maybe I should say "forced it out of me." lol) I need the reminder that heaven is close, that I'm really not in control at all, that my body is beautiful in all its shapes and sizes and the human body is AMAZING, that I cannot do it alone and I never have to, to slow down, and to love. To love deeper, unconditionally, and without reserve!!!! And perhaps the thing I need most is the reminder that God loves me that way already...… no matter what I do, or how ridiculous I can be...… he loves me without reserve because I'm His!!!!! Love you more than you know for giving me life mom. I recognize the sacrifice and will love you forever for not only having me, but teaching, loving, and helping me be the person I am today! LOVE YOU FOREVER! Well, closing up year 2018 and welcoming in the new. It's been a tough year for me.... .and as I've looked around, it's been a difficult one for many people. It hasn't been without it's joys, excitement and memories but overall it's been a tough year of growth. Growth..... just that word. Doesn't it make you cringe a little because of what it means. It means, CHANGE. It means STRETCHING. It means having to get out of that comfort zone. The thing is..... from the outside looking in, gosh WHAT A YEAR!! We ended our year long RV adventure for the first 6 months of the year, I got to go to Europe for the first time, we moved to a place that makes my soul sing, we got to walk the purple carpet at gala after hitting Diamond in Doterra!!!! I loved our big moments, I truly did. But through the year I was lacking self discipline and consistency in the small and simple things. So it's a funny thing...… I've grown emotionally quite a bit which has been a stretching experience but I believe 2018 was a little lackluster also because of the LACK of growth! I think every January brings excitement and anticipation for the clean slate and the promise of dreams and goals realized. "I want to lose weight," "I want to rank up in my business," "I want to make more money," "I want to be better at reading my scriptures," "I want to check two things off my bucket list," and the list goes on. But all those things that we dream of in January are the culmination of daily small and simple things. And those are the things that I struggle with. The discipline of showing up for myself every. single. day! I could think of 2019 and for sure say that I will...…. Eat more Little Ceasar's, take more naps, clean up the 1,000th wall of marker and crayon drawings by Gatlin, and many other equally exciting and ambitious goals and feel like I could 100% accomplish them all, to then make me feel better about myself but CALL ME CRAZY...… I love the stretch, I love the growth, I love thinking of a new year of possibilities! For me, for my family, for my community, for the world. So 2019 goals..... 1. Hit Blue Diamond in Doterra with social media 2. Lose 40 lbs 3. Create a 6 figure click funnel 4. Makeover 2 rooms in our house 5. Go on a solo trip with each child 6. Go on date night twice a month 7. FHE every week + family devotional daily 8. Go to the temple monthly 9. Choose ME and do something for ME every single day!!!!!!!!! (some obvious self love movement forward) 10. (cause 10 is my lucky number and I couldn't stop at #9) Follow my JOYYYYYYYYY Impressive photography of 2018 brought to you by our talented, vivacious Gatlin. This collage titled, "The Important things in Life."
So don't let my goals and ramblings above confuse you..... playing with these transformers and vehicles above should be real life goals for 2019. |
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